Cellar Door: 01 Juni 2008

Freitag, Juni 06, 2008

a poem written in 2005

It’s been nothing else, but fear

Is there still some hope?

Is there any possibility of changes…

My heart, aching and my back, bouncing…

Scattered memories hold my fingers

A dark cloud with no silver lining

Pores, scars, dirt

Worm, veins, and rotten feelings

I’m a black hole

Filled with pus

I’m a cancer, a brain tumor

No words to describe

What and how worse can this get?

Focus on duty

Locus is nowhere

That’s a way to get over this.

Will I ever be free again?

Will I ever be me?

by Laila Chris

Ms Burden

Sup? I'm Laila Chris Burden. Welcome to Cellar Door. English isn't my mother tongue, but that's the language in which I best communicate. Besides a blogger, I am a teacher, a poet, a stationery junkie, a married woman, and have two cats. I teach languages, do pilates and therapy, and major in psychology. I speak Portuguese on the daily basis. Brazil is the country where I live and in here people speak this awesome latin language. I also speak German, Spanish, some French, Mandarin, and Japanese. I am a visual arts freak, although I'm very fond of music. I lived in Florida for a while though my trip was part of an exchange student program. I went to the US to achieve another college degree. I studied Liberal Arts in Saint Petersburg, Pinellas County (Tampa Bay area), USA. I had also taken another college degree course in Brazil before moving to Uncle Sam's land. I hold a bachelor's degree in Journalism. Another interesting fact of my life is that my present occupation is not actually based on writing or arts per se. I teach ESL- English as a Second Language. Never would I imagine becoming a teacher in this life. Well, maybe I should have since my both parents are ESL teachers. My husband manages our ESL school, PBF, and teaches English as well. We live along with a Siamese cat called Tibby and a black short-hair one called Pancho Villa. I am terrible driver but a wonderful chef. Hubby's name is Roberto and we are both from Sao Paulo. We have been non officially married for 14 years and we have been officially dating since September 1991. Btw, I'm in my mid thirties. Hubby and I have been going through gizillions of ups and downs in this life and yet we keep on moving. We work hard to pay utilities including the broad band Internet wireless connection which allows me blog on. We do struggle. We do love what we do. I love my writings, my husband, my kitties, my occupation, my blogs. I love being the kind of monkey I turned out being.

Ms Burden